Skipped my first psychiatry appt.
Started eating a bit more, which leads to purging more
Probably gained a few pounds, but it feels like 30
Quit drinking pretty much. It was becoming a daily thing and interfering with school, so that’s a positive.
Overall. I don’t really know what I’m doing. I’ve pretty much avoided mirrors at all costs the past month since I’ve put on a few pounds. I’m just too disgusted with myself at this point and yeah. I’d really just like to start loosing weight again tbh. I don’t really have any motivation or see any reason to recover.
that’s my life as of now.
I finally reached out for help for my anorexia. I’m terrified of getting fatter than I already am but I’m more terrified of continuing to live like this. I’m tired of going to sleep hoping I don’t wake up the next morning. So yeah, here I go.